So, yesterday I started getting some notifications from people commenting on my LinkedIn profile. I had no idea why people were saying “congratulations” to me, as far I know I really haven’t done anything to achieve any sort of praise.
It turns out that yesterday was my two year anniversary writing my column for InRetro Magazine/InRetro Radio.
It got me to thinking. When I first started writing the column, I was so unsure of myself. For the first ten submissions I had my husband review, critique and advise because I was so insecure about the format, flow and presentation. I hadn’t written anything in the previous two years so, let me tell you, I did have some difficulties, especially in writing something longer than a sound bite.
But over the course of the last two years, I took my husband’s criticism to heart (in a very positive way) and have worked to make my writing better. I may not be a great writer, but I now know I am a ‘good enough’ writer.
When I first moved to the States – almost 5 years ago – my biggest trouble was finding personal worth. I had left a job I loved and entered into the realm of unemployment. So, when I started my column it was a struggle when people asked me ‘what do you do?’ For so long I said that I’m looking for ‘meaningful’ work (my less depressing way of saying unemployed). Even after I started writing, I never felt like I could say I was a writer. I kept trying it out as my answer, but I felt like a liar even thinking it. How dare I presume to call myself a writer?
But the truth is I’ve always been a writer.
A big part of my job in politics and in government was writing. I wrote what to say, I revised and re-worked speeches, press releases, letters; I wrote policy proposals, reports, not to mention thousands of emails…just about everything I did was writing.
And after all this time, I find I’ve been selling myself short…
So I will keep at it, and keep getting better, knowing that this is what I’ve always done and will continue to do.
That being said – as I enter into the realm of science fiction/fantasy – I just wrote my first short story (well, first since it was required in school), and after another round or two of edits, I will submit it to Daily Science Fiction and see what happens.
It’s time to truly dive in. I’ll let you know how it goes.